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Beware cause im really loud and prolly retarded at the same time.im known for making hell alot of noise when i get high and i love singing even more when i sound bad. makes me and everyone else happier(HAHAHA).
/Monday, March 31, 2008
HandWritten on; 8:05 AM
shit happens, shit just happened.
Bianca broke down today and from what i see on her blog, it seems to be all my fault?like almost everythign is my fault. im not blaming her or whatever, but i just dont think its fair, really, am i the one that told clique not to talk to you? no. am i the one that ignores you? no. who is the one that made me join 420? you. who told me to give my all for 420? you. so is it really my fault that everything happened or is it cause my name is easier to spell or something? i just dont think its fair, but, i know how it feels to be a piece of shit left alone, i felt it before remember bianca? at camp when i cried cause i was the fuckng invinsible one? yes, you've seen it all. i tried to be there for you but noooooooooooooo. now that you have your new bestfriend, its almost like im being replaced, have you thought about that? i didnt even replace you even though we're drifting aprt and all that shit. you're still my best. its just cause you've changed quite alot and people are just not used to the new you now,or whatever it is. even if we do ask you go hang out, you'll just end up going home. i asked if you wanted to go ikea today right? but you said you didnt want to, and i said okay. i cant force you right? its the freedom of speech shit. to me i feel that its the term 'EFFORT' not 'friends'. you mix well, you have 5209384 friends that you can turn to, i have less. much much less and you know it, BB. so try puting yourself in my shoes. is it easier for me or you to make friends, you. who do you think is more at the losing side, both, but more of me right? and i ddint mention this just now, but if you would just be a little less attention seeking, it would help a bunch.
im sorry if whatever i just said hurt you, but if you want the truth then its all here.
and i just wanted to tell you that im going for 420 training tmr, not cause some national sailor told me to. cause someone told me to give it my all if its what i really want to do.you told me that. just so you know. im going to get this whole sailing thing over and done.